Hopeless?

Well, it's 3:30 in the morning on Sunday night, and I'm sitting in my car listening to music off my laptop.. I have reached a new geekiness level now. I really should be sleeping seeing as how tomorrow is my first day at TeleTech, but try as I might, I can't sleep. It's really astounding how fast a laptop battery dies. I haven't been out here more than half an hour ad it's already half way down. POS. But anyway, yesterday- realized that I'm not gonna be with Fe. She's still in party mode, same as Crystal. I'm not entirely sure why the girls that get me hooked so bad don't want anything like what I'm looking for. It's actually kind of funny how I always hear girls bitch and moan about how they can't find a good guy to settle down a bit with, but when it comes time to piss or get off the can..... yeah. women.. lol. the whole bunch of em are crazy. but i don't think i could imagine life withouth them. Sometimes i do wonder if they would mind so much if they had life without me though. I apologize to anyone reading this, because i am ranting about feeling sorry for myself. again. but that's what this is for right? so kiss my ass. lol. Oh well. got a the most random of date-ish things tomorrow evening. Chick of the internet from palm bay. we'll see how that works out. but i did test out my pushy asshole theory, and within 15 minutes of first talking to her, i had her number and knew exactly where to find her. however, i have my suspicions that if i was my normal nice and passive self, i probably wouldn't even know her name. lol. WTF!! someone please explain to me why women go for assholes! maybe i need to be more of a dick, and i will get more attention or somethin. Life's just funny like that.

Moving on to the brighter side of life....

Checklist of things for Matt to do:
1. Get outta tallahassee - check.
2. find an apartment in palm bay - check.
3. get a job in palm bay - check.
4. get 2nd job in palm bay - nope.
5. move shit from tally to p.b. - nope.
6. find a girl to share my love with - lol yeah right.
7. work out my big ass red ink stain - halfway.
8. smooth things out with parents - yep. they paid for a bunch of stuff.

More on life later.